HOW I BECAME THE MOST HATED POET IN NIGERIA
Seeing
the title, you might perhaps say, it is an exaggeration; another antic to get attention,
but you are entitled to your own opinion.
My
name is Eneji Stephen Toluwalashe,
popularly known as Soul’e Rhymez;
this name perhaps might not ring the bell to you, if you are not a poet or a
poetry lover or haven’t read any of my write-ups.
However,
if you are, that name might sound to you like “troublemaker”, “controversy”
or “inflated ego”. Of course every
other person who has read my works seem to believe this too, how did I come
about all these titles?
I
was a cool headed writer despite I was not destined to be, until somewhat 2013,
when a guy, one of the so-called top poets in the country condemned my poem in
a very wrong manner and rebuked him.
He
came to my inbox, questioning my right to write for people’s girlfriends and
also tagged my works “mundane” and “profane”, though he went on to deny tagging
my poem profane, the mundane tag encapsulated everything.
He
was with the wrong guy, I knew my craft and would stand to defend it anytime, I
wasn’t ready for any god-poet, who will dictate poetry to me and tell me when I
am right or wrong. This does not go well with all of these so-called
professional critiques, which included this guy, but I gave no damn. My works
are purely intellectual materials of high order, regardless of how badly arranged
they are, it doesn’t stop them from being great works, so I won’t take it from
anyone, not even Shakespeare to rate
my works less than they really are.
With
that, my writing career took another turn. I clashed with a lot of folks like him
and these guys make things happen in the growing poetry industry. Offending these
guys mean I might never be known or be reckoned with in the industry. They are
gods to the up and coming poets. Whatsoever they say is the final, but there
was a little known up and coming poet, who won’t take such unwholesome and
unprofessional criticism or bow to any god-poet.
That
was when I began to garner the reputation of an “arrogant poet”. This is an uncommon reputation, because poets are
known to be unnecessarily humble folks. Another incidence happened, again with
another top poet from the east, I was added to his WhatsApp group and I saw certain
injustice towards guys that are not close or loyal to him, it seemed everyone
in the group was afraid of him, but even though I respect him, I wasn’t afraid
of him, I questioned him and without any waste of time, he removed me from the
group.
He
told me he had informed people to stop commenting on my works, perhaps meaning
he had spoilt my reputation to them, we later met at an event where I requested
to be added to the group again, but I was soon removed since I couldn’t deal
with the continued injustice going on there. I was removed for questioning the
so-called authority. Of all things, writing an open letter to this guy and
dropping in it in the group he created looked extreme, but this letter was
carefully crafted that I praised his efforts more than I rebuked his faults,
but he couldn’t just stand criticism like they give to others and I was
removed.
These
two guys are at the top when I could be regarded only as an up and coming poet,
offending them seemed the end to my poetry career even before I started.
They
handle most of the slams, competitions and the nominations and it means, there
was no way I could win or be nominated for any award, regardless of how
talented I am except I bow to them.
These
are no mere assumptions; a blogger once told me some poets protested the
inclusion of my name when he added me in the list of the top 10 poets to be
watched out for in Nigeria. This seems I
am systematically out of the game, since they control most of these things and
can also influence others against me.
The
negative perception of me is so much that everyone now believes from afar that
I am rude, most of them haven’t talked with me and aren’t prepared to do so,
because of what they have been fed with. It flows from up to down, these guys
are not smart, they all assume I will be rude to anyone that comes my way, they
could not just differentiate between rudeness and boldness and with that, I do
not have any friend that poetry connects us, but I know I have thousands of
secrets admirers, who could not openly defend me in order not to put themselves
in their god-poets’ bad books.
One
of the poets, after an argument in a group came to my inbox and confessed “I
like your amiable arrogance”. This oxymoron is apt and says a lot, can
arrogance be amiable? Am I actually arrogant?
Of
course anyone that have read most of my works will have nothing different to
say, I write with such unquestionable authority, I make my opinions look simply
the best, my dispositions are such that makes you think I am a god, but does these
make me an arrogant person? Could all these people be wrong?
All
of these alongside my write-ups with certain unorthodoxies have contributed to
making me a threat to a lot of folks, most of who must have thought I targeted
them with my write-ups. It seems everyone wants a piece of Soul’e Rhymez; it’s me against the world, it has always been like
that. Due to lack of understanding and unwillingness to know more, people
believe what they are told about me without trying to know me personally, even
when I have settled with those that told them. With that, they can only see
what they want to see; that which they are told.
No
gain saying that I have a combative nature, I am a fighter and I hate loses, I
can argue my points out with anyone, stating my facts clearly, I love to win all
my arguments and easily get irritated by ignorance, but I still believe none of
these makes me an arrogant person.
My
personality has a way of steering up envy in people, but I do not just know to
stop it.
Should
I keep quiet and not say things I know and things that affect me?
Should
I stop writing because some folks feel intimidated by my writing skills and
ideas?
Will
these give me a positive personality?
The
poetry industry is simply in shambles!
I
wrote about it, but most of the poets who had collected it to be published
could not publish them, simply because, again, I attacked the top poets, most
of who are these guy’s mentors. Publishing it means they support me and will
therefore face the wrath of their god-poets.
In
that same article, I pointed out the gap between the upcoming poets and the established
one, and their unprofessional manner of criticism as the major source of problems
in the poetry world.
There
is no way anyone will thread my path and not be left alone; it takes the brave
to do so. I am not a coward, I am not scared of the consequences, I am not
limited by their hatred and envy, their love for me at the detriment of truth
would have been the worst.
It
is true I personally offend people, but I sincerely apologize whenever I
realize them, which I am always quick to do. To err is human, but all I can do
is to ask for forgiveness when I realize my mistakes, however, I do not make
people forgive, it is their choice and if they choose not to forgive, I move on
with my life. If this makes me a bad person, then I do not want to be good!
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