As long as life exists, there always will be people
that look beautiful and those that look ugly – I, fortunately, belong to the
latter. I grew up getting the worst treatments because of how I looked. Nobody
liked me; I had a not-well shaped head and big lips – I was nicknamed
ridiculously based on my look. It was hard growing up simply because I looked
ugly.
My secondary school days were the worst of my days
with bullies, both physically and verbally – many people bullied me because
they did not like how I looked. I got back from school daily having another bully
story to tell. Talk about the girls, I was a complete outcast. I always feared
that girls would never like me.
When I got to sss2, my fear became a reality; I
fell in love with one girl named Esther who joined us in sss2. She appeared to
possess all I wanted in a woman, and being one goal-getter, I went for her
despite I knew that the odds of getting her were very slim.
She was a queen and I was the ugliest of all
slaves, but I did not care; I loved her enough to go after her. That was the
first time I fell in love and regardless of how it turned out, I never regret loving
her or expressing my feelings. I will do it again, but now with more sense of
pride and wisdom than before.
Asking Esther out was to a lot of people, a step
too high for me – I was biting more than I could chew. I always do – that
marked the beginning of the man I am. A man that dreams beyond his limitations.
At one point, her group of friends felt I was too low to her and organized
junior students to mock me. It was tough!
To them, I was the ugliest guy around, but to me, I
was the best guy any girl could have. I was simply in my own world – everyone,
even my mom believed that I was ugly and that it was the reason why too many
people did not like me.
Aside from being ugly, what attracted more hatred
to me was my unwillingness to see myself the way they saw me and accept pity –
I was a tough-minded motherfucker. That never changed and it won’t.
My decision to ask Esther out caused me a lot of
trouble, which affected my WAEC results – it was a war of self-esteem that
would have lasted a lifetime, but one which I won at age 24, about 5 years
after the event took place.
For those five years, I faced a lot of trauma; I
got cussed almost daily based on my look; I would cry whenever I am alone and
take the mirror to see if I was as ugly as they claimed. However, whenever I
took the mirror, somehow I could not see ugliness; I always saw the face of a
hero.
While I had a strong mind, the way I was continually
treated all through my secondary school days and after it crept into my
subconscious mind and affected my life until I was 24 years old. I did not ask
any girl out for the fear of rejection and possible mockery that I may face. My
experience turned to resentment for the girls until I gave myself over to a
voluntary rebirth through self-discovery and development.
I have now moved from that guy who was bullied and
mocked for asking a girl out to one that turns away women on daily basis. I
have been asked out by girls and ladies on several occasions. My appearance did
not change – I still intentionally do not dress well, no face surgery but
something changed. What is it?
If there is anything any man get for his
handsomeness, I have enjoyed more and still do. My look does not change, but it
does not make any difference – many handsome guys give their hard-earned money
to attract women, but more women have offered me money than I have given to
women in my entire life.
I have received more support from women than men
based on the fact that they love me. I am not even rich or famous yet, so what
am I doing right? Surely I am doing something that too many people don’t dare
to do and these secrets are revealed in my new books titled MOTHERFUCKERS CODES (for men), and
FATHERFUCKERS CODES (for ladies).
If you believe that you cannot be loved simply
because you are ugly, something is wrong with you, but it is not about your
look. My life has shown that ugliness is just a word, it becomes a reality and
stops you if you refuse to do certain things I did as documented in those books
mentioned above. A word, they say, is enough for the wise but as for the
followers of my philosophies, half-word is enough.
I am Soul’e Rhymez, Lagos-based Author &
Motivational Speaker.
Tel:
+2348163800077. Whatsapp: http://bit.ly/2TPYR16
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can also connect me here: http://bit.ly/2XPTgZj
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